I can't fully voice this. So, I am going to only say what I can comfortably, or at least as comfortably as is possible at the moment.
I think of it often, more so when I find I'm fustrated. Ideas and images that come to mind are so... so very intense that I can almost feel it at times. Sometimes ideas strike me so strongly that I can't shake them.
The thought of being restrained is one that frequently comes to mind. The image that comes to mind the most recently is that of arms pushed back and tied together. I could say more, but it's just too... to much at the moment.
I wish I knew what to do with it all. I can't exactly write this down. But I don't know how to voice it.