Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Book of poems in the works...

I found my poetry journals. I'm combing through them and selecting poems to publish. Some of them are atrociously bad. Some of them are pretty good. And then others pull at my heartstrings. This one I wrote for Stargazer, though I never dared to reveal that to her whilst she was amongst us. I hope that where ever she is, that she forgives my lack of courage.

Venusian Muse
Oh sweet slayer of my soul
Thine eyes are arrows
Whose wounds a noble heart hath lain low
Crimson tears mix with pining sighs
For I suffer sweet sorrows
In want of thy tender grace
That which angels in heaven dare not know
By god's own hand
Wert thou formed
With beauty to make my heart burn as a brand
And a spirit more innocent and sweet then
     a babe newly born
My cruel mistress
Thy hidden, chaste eye wounds me
As my weak words bear witness

Back to work!

[insert sound of whip crack here]

The long weekend was busy. I had a wonderful time spending time just hanging out with my husband and the kids. Now I have writing to catch up on before the kids get home from school and housework to do. I also have the powerful urge to completely clear off and reorganize my altar. Meh, random stuff to do.

Sunday, May 19, 2013


For some incomprehensible reason, I suddenly feel exhausted. I don't know if it's just the weather affecting me or what. I do know that I don't want to go lay down and take a nap right now. I feel like I have so much stuff I should be doing right now. I finally have my writing schedule hammered out.

Monday: Work on my Fantasy Novel

Tuesday: Work on my Veiled Witch blog

Wednesday: Work on stuff for Anam Cara blog

Thursday: Work on my Dream Interpretation manuscript

Friday: Work on my memoirs

Saturday & Sunday: Work on my physics theories

At the same time, I have my daily writing that I work on too. Everyday, I write in my gratitude journal. I also make sure to write three pages in my daily journal. I have an additional project that I am working on for Beloved that I work on everyday as well.

Monday, May 06, 2013

Dreaming of a house...

I've made a decision today. I am not going to look longingly at houses anymore. It is making me feel like where I live now is a mistake. I refuse to do that to myself. If we get a house someday, it will be nice. Until then, I am going to make the best of where we live now and be happy here. I'm no longer looking over the proverbial fence at somebody else's grass.

I may not have a traditional in the ground garden, but I do have a garden. I have my rose bush. I am growing vegetables and flowers. I will be growing some herbs again. This may not be the garden that I grew up with, but it is *MY* garden and that is all that matters.

My home is just the size for what we need right now. I am going to continue to get rid of and donate things that are excess and not of sentimental value. I am going to continue to pare back the random crap that I have kicking around until I have reached the core of what is important. I am going to be happy here.

It is not a matter of 'bloom where you're planted' as much as when we moved in I was excited about the potential for this place. As we moved our things in, the apparent space available diminished. Then the kids' toys piled up and apparent space diminished again. This is not a small apartment.

The one downstairs is. It is the size of my living room, the boy's room, and half of the kitchen. I am going to make the best of what space we have and what blessings we have here. I am going to make a point of being thankful for what is here. And I am going to aggressively pursue getting the best out of what we have here.

I'm not going to worry about a house. We can't afford one right now. And that's ok. More space would turn into more stuff and that would become more anxiety. I am not going to do that to myself.

Friday, May 03, 2013

Crochet Socks, FTW!

I used the first pattern listed to make the socks I pictured below. When I do another pair for myself, I am thinking about trying out the second pattern. I'm not entirely decided. The first one is pretty simple and really easy to tailor to your foot size. I'm not so sure about the second.

I made the socks using the cotton candy print from Lion Brand's line Sock Ease.


Art Show Pictures!

As I promised, here are the pictures from the art show opening this week. It will be going around the county to different locations over the course of the month. If you want to know the locations, drop a comment in the box. I recognize that most of my readers are outside of the Livingston County, NY area so I have decided not to spam them with the details of where this is going on.