I forget things. It sucks.

For example, LARP was tonight. I forgot. It sucks. I kinda wanted to go be social. On the other hand, I realized that I don't have the spoons for being social. So, now I am worried that my friends think that I've just dropped them from my life. I've a friend that moved recently who has invited me over to her new place. I can't bring myself to go there because I'm kinda terrified I'm going to get lost. It is literally two or three turns from here to there, including the one out of my driveway to get on the road. I'm afraid to go significant distances driving right now. I worry about what I will do if my blood sugar gets too low. I worry about what I'm going to do if I have a panic attack. And then there is the practical worries that go with driving at night.

I'm not doing too great. I know that there are some who are going to read this and get a chuckle out of it. To those souls specifically: FUCK YOU. I'm fighting a war in my head every day that has me struggling to function. I've been depressed now for a year. So, laugh it up while you can because it will come back on you at some point.

In the mean time, I need to go drink another bottle of water and contemplate how to get rid of spiders with out murdering them all.

Monday Menu 8/6/18

I have forgotten the link for the table generator. I also have misplaced my notebook with the menu in it. I just have my notes in my planner for dinners. It's been a bit hectic over here trying to get my stuff back in order. I realized I'm still not quite at 100% right now. I need to make a few phone calls to see what can be done to resolve that. Until then, I am trying to get myself ready for the start of the school year. One month. I think I can make it that far with out losing what's left of my sanity.

Monday dinner: Hamburgers and carrot salad

Tuesday dinner: Tacos, refried beans, and mexican rice (and a taco salad for me)

Wednesday dinner: Spaghetti & meatballs (and zucchini noodles with sauce for me)

Thursday dinner: General Tso chicken with rice (riced cauliflower for me,  ez mac for the kids)

Friday dinner: Chicken jalfrezi with peanut noodles (more veggie noodles for me) and naan

Saturday dinner: roast chicken with pasta salad.