1112

Some how, I hit 1111 posts and didn't realize it until today. I would have made my most more meaningful if I had realized it was a nifty number like that. I am eyeballs deep in line edits on book four of the fantasy series that I've been working on. I am thankful that I have caught spelling errors and such. At the same time, this is a lot of work and I kinda wish I had the budget to do something like hire and editor and a marketing team.

My mother in law suggested I find a literary agent. I am thinking about it. I don't know where to begin or how to go about it. I find myself anxious about the idea of having an agent walk off with a manuscript. At one point, I entered into a competition that was supposed to have the winner getting a book contract. I had to fight with them and threaten legal measures to get my manuscript back. Since then, I am uneasy with the prospect of a third party handling my work.

I'm also highly annoyed that one of my digital works has been ripped off and is floating around as a pirated pdf. I'm angry but I don't know if there is anything I can do about it.

Oh, hello there cold, long time no see.

So, we get past the 'fun' of the norovirus. Everybody's finally healthy for a few days. And then I come down with a cold. I was wondering why my blood sugar was running high. Our stress levels in the household at large have been coming down as some very important things are settling out. I was finding my fasting numbers coming back into range. Then they started running high over the last few days.

Apparently having a cold makes my numbers go up. I am not thrilled with this fact. I'm kinda glad that I've got an answer. But I hate the fact that my sinuses feel awful. And I'm exhausted. I haven't been sleeping well over the last several days. I've been having surreal nightmares that make no sense when I wake up.

Like the nightmare that I was in a warehouse with mislabeled packages and I had to correct the labels with out getting caught. Or the one that all of my son's teeth fell out and were replaced with shark teeth. I'd understand that one if I was still nursing or something, but that was just weird because we're long past that stage of development. I've just been having surreal dreams that are terrifying in the dream world and when I wake up just confusing as hell.

I don't think my subconscious mind is trying to tell me something but who knows. Maybe it is and it is that I should be afraid of mislabled food packages or something.

Not enough coffee in the world

The past few weeks have been less than stellar. We've been passing this norovirus back and forth. I don't think the in-laws caught it when we visited. But for the last few weeks somebody in this household has had some stomach complaints. It's lead to the kids taking turns having a bucket as a bedside companion. I am glad that I'm on medication to control the random vomiting symptoms that come with one of my other medications, because I didn't need that bucket when I had it.

Along with the stomach issues, I haven't been sleeping well. I've been having nightmares. This is not a new development because I have chronic trauma related nightmares. I'm not sure exactly why I am having nightmares about losing the children. It has been exceedingly unpleasant. I woke up in the wee hours of the morning on the verge of a panic attack because of my nightmares. It sucked.

Because of life being a pain in the ass, I have had to push back the release of book four of the fantasy series I've written. There's some stuff that I just haven't had time or the spoons to do that absolutely needs to happen before it is ready to be released.

Deb's KAL & CAL for Charity

I'm making scarves for the homeless as one of my charity projects this year. I have two patterns I am working from right now. The first one is knitting with funfur yarn held with same colored sport weight yarn. The second one is crochet with sport weight yarn in two colors.

For the knitted scarf:
Cast on 20 stitches.
Row 1: Knit 4, purl 4, K4, P4, K4, P4, K4, P4, K4, P4
Row 2: P4, K4, P4,K4, P4,K4, P4,K4, P4,K4
Row 3: repeat R1
Row 4: Repeat R2

Row 5: Repeat R2
Row 6: Repeat R1
Row 7: Repeat R2
Row 8: Repeat R1

Continue the pattern until your scarf is of desired length. (I'm aiming for around 55 inches.)


For the crochet scarf:
With color one, chain 30 + 2

Moss stitch

Moss stitch for three inches with color one. Moss stitch for three inches with color two. Repeat the alternating color pattern until this scarf is long as you desire. (Again, I'm aiming for around 55 inches.)

ETA: I forgot to mention, I'm also making a few scarves for needy students at my kids's school. The school colors are blue and orange so that is what I'm using.

I'm half way to zombie. Brainz?

This has been one hell of a week. It started out with food poisoning. It was a mild enough case that I was able to power through and get Cuddle Bear to his orthodontist appointment where he got his braces off. The boy has been sixteen different kinds of excited because now he can eat his favorite candy again.

The weather's been flipping back and forth between wet and miserable and tolerable. As such my mood has been flipping back and forth between depressed and ok. I did not realize that rainy days were a depression trigger. A theory that Beloved and I have is that there is some kind of trauma memory attached to this kind of weather. Gods only knows what that is, but I'm sure it will reveal itself eventually. They always do.

Had a migraine start the day before yesterday and go until almost halfway through yesterday. That sucked royally. Fortunately, the migraine didn't start until after Snuggle Bug's doctor's appointment. The boy's got some miserable allergies and our family doctor was awesome enough to put him on something that actually helps. First dose and the kid wasn't having sinus problems or itchy eyes all day.

I have a new book out. I have no idea how to make it sell, but I'm going to try. I would prefer to just sit here and crank out books but I don't have a marketing team to sell them for me. I feel like I have zero clue what I am doing here. It's a bit demoralizing to look and see that I've made no sales.

I'm going to try to follow the example set out by some other indie authors and just plug my book as often as I can until I get some reviews and then plug the book with the reviews. I'm not sure how to go about getting reviews, but I'll figure it out somehow.

In other news, I am working on the Kindle version of this book which is going to require entirely different format stuff and new exercises. This thing was originally designed as a workbook. But I recognize that there are people who are going to want this information and not be able to get their hands on the workbook.

I wish that Lulu and KDP played nicely together. Then I could have put this thing together on Lulu and not have Amazon throw a fit over it. They still haven't ironed out what ever technical issue is there which is why I have been doing more on KDP because that goes out to a larger audience than Lulu right now. It is frustrating.

Fiber fluff: Preemie hats!

The spinning guild has found a hospital in Elmira, NY that is in need of preemie hats. So, I have been making those instead of washcloths. I have a half duffel bag full of washcloths that I'm trying to get rid of. I keep bringing it with me to spinning guild telling people they can take one if they want one. I'm debating putting them up on Etsy and selling them. I have a lot of them and I don't know if selling them at $2.00 is worth the cost of shipping.

I'm making preemie hats. I have been using my doll Annie as a guide. Annie is the name I gave the doll that my parents bought to get me clothes to wear when I was born, as I was a preemie. I am also using a darning egg as a guide for the micro preemie sized hats.  Pictured to the right is the pile that I donated at the last guild meeting.

Also pictured are the three scarves I made for the homeless. I have started working my way through my yarn stash between these hats and the scarves. My goal is that by the end of the year, I will be down to one laundry basket worth of yarn.

Only part of my efforts is going to include making stuff for charity. I have a shawl project that I have been meaning to make for ages. I'm finally going to work on it as soon as I get this green one that I'm designing as I go along done. I'm a quarter of the way through that.

Spinning goals are stalled because I have been doing more knitting and crochet of late. Next month, however, I'm going to start spinning in earnest. Got to get ready for Tour de Fleece.